Thursday, August 23, 2007

Rollercoaster...

Not of love mind you, but of crazy, mixed up emotional high and lows. Today (starting at midnight last night) was one of those lows. Charlie went from being her bright eyed, super star self yesterday to last night being put back on the nose hose, and possibly needing a transfusion. We went from the emotional high of holding her, watching her look at us and smile, to hearing she is taking "a step back". We heard it so many times today, "this is normal for preemie's, she's taken two steps forward, this is just a small step back, so overall she's still ahead." We appreciate that fact, but that doesn't make anything better, and it may be normal for preemie's, but Charlotte isn't just another preemie, this is our Charlotte Jean. So at the end of the day, she is doing better, still on her nose hose (which is for flow only, no oxygen), still as beautiful as ever, and she even said she loved us in her own special way... she had a huge blowout today when I was holding her. Not just singular, but multiple vibrations from that little tush of hers. I swear she grinned at me after she was done. I think her mom put her up to it ;)

But I do have a new favorite picture of Charlotte, this is from the other day. I love it, just the look she has on her face is classic. So I made the picture black and white, a nice cool tone and then my little tweak to the color. I love this and it helps to ease the issues from today. Somewhat, we still want her home more than anything and I think we were just getting our hopes up that it would be the 2-3 weeks that we were told it could be. This has now been pushed back to a month to 6 weeks. Of course, that could change tomorrow and then change again a few hours... I would much prefer a fun roller coaster like Ghost Rider to this. We're both spent, emotionally and physically, but we just keep going... she's entirely too cute not to.

Sorry about the ramblings, I still have some weddings to post that I helped out on, one with Kelly from 15th Street Photo and one with VisualMasterpiece, so needless to say, things are nutty and crazy busy!

But now, our pride and joy... Charlotte Jean... Mom and Dad love you sweetheart and we are so proud of you!!





6 comments:

Mary-LUE said...

I'm so sorry about this set back. I was just talking to Jessica this past Sunday about the hope that it might be just a few weeks instead of a month or more until Charlie comes home.

I'll be praying that that will still be the case.

The picture is adorable. I can't wait to see her in person!

Sheila said...

I'm so sorry, too. We are praying for all of you.

jen said...

thanks for the update will. thinking of you guys ...

Sandra Salisbury said...

my family has been praying for your beautiful family and thanking god for each day. Charlotte is so sweet with her little peeking smile! She is a ham for daddy's lens all ready! Keep pushing on.... she will feel the compassion and drive that you and Jess carry and soon enough she will passing you both up!

Jasmine said...

Soooo amazing. She'll be home soon...with everyone's prayers, she'll be sitting in your arms while you watch TV soon! :)

S said...

I'm so sorry about this guys :( I can't imagine what it must feel like to go through this. Thanks for keeping everyone updated with the ups & downs. I hope she can come home to that cozy house of hers very soon!
Love you both, Stancie